Monday, October 27, 2008
satan's bottomless well
satan is a loser...
God is the beginning
Let Him be your ending.
i was having a hard day until i signed in and saw something that made me smile..
the hardest thing is to know, i strongly believe in that phrase because if you don't know then you can't take any action, make any changes..work (my job) is hard and it constantly tests my faith. Satan is everywhere and ever busy, doesn't he ever get tired? then i'm stuck with my own paradox..while i tell myself over and over that when one door closes another one opens and that God provides...my little voice has been telling me for weeks to "get out" of my job and i haven't had the guts to leave...my fear...
....my fear that i won't land on my feet, that that door won't open like i believe, that my bills won't go on hold until i find my true mission..everything. and i must admit that i'm scared.
but again the hardest thing is to know. now i know and i need God more now than ever....what to do?
i was having a hard day until i signed in and saw something that made me smile...
Sunday, October 19, 2008
radiating sunbeams of glory
God and all His awesomeness
is my favorite bedtime story
trials and temptations
and doubting "Thomases"
he has never yet failed me
and has kept all of His promises
how excellent is His name
when spoken with righteous lips
and made from the earth
and plucked from a rib
he keeps my soul dancing
in the early morning
and calms my spirit daily
until twilight's dawning
and when i lay me down at night
i rest my weary head
knowing the grace of God
today will be an awesome day as i have the power to control my thoughts and actions. though temptations may follow me i'll keep them in the background cause i have more profound reason to give my best. i'm blessed, so blessed and sometimes i wonder why me? but i won't question God and his originality i will just try to be....a good servant.
been feeling a bit burnt out recently, feels like i am living to work, instead of working to live. the former speaks to my life being void of prayers and praise and more on hours and bills. i don't like it but i have myself to blame who else but me can efficiently manage my time?
....balance. i'm a Libra and i can't find the balance. it troubles me.
a friend of mine suggested to me earlier this week that i should dedicate at least 5-10 minutes of alone time for talking with God and i haven't even made the effort. i will do that shortly.
with each day i feel even more thankful, thankful for eyes that can see the morning sun..
Monday, October 13, 2008
choose to listen
dance with the wind
i don't mind second place
i just wanna finish..is all
i don't mind atall
holding the door for you
letting you take me seat
and i definitely don't care
if you're packing heat
see..i'm sweet and tender
and full of sugar
and i'd melt the tips
of an iceberg
with my words.
no..but i don't wanna sound
cocky luckily i have
God! he grounds me
fills me sustains me
delivers me from adversity
so i wanna give a shout out
to Him for through Him
i have found eternity.
i guess it's something that comes with growing...growing in all facets be it spiritual, mental, individual, physical even sexual. it comes and stays and you either have to deal with it head on or ignore it and let it stay there undernourished.
i guess i used to be embarrassed, i felt like my messages were so hmmmm, corny, ordinary "undeep", man just weak, and i never wanted to open myself up to criticism. plus i was fearful of who i knew was watching me. why? i don't know. but i guess i've grown.
i've changed in the sense that i am open now to other people, other words, other points of view. i am open to listening and getting the courage to voice my opinions. i'm not ashamed to learn from others and i think that has been the most exciting part...learning from people who have been filling voids that i didn't even know existed. i am filled with gladness when i think of the doors and avenues this new point of view has led me too..
so to all that pass through, to those that allow me to see you and your points of view and influence and shape my thinking...thank you.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
I woke up a different woman this morning
Different to the woman that closed her eyes to sleep
What a beautiful surprise the sunrise was
Removing the shades of darkness
I watched the sun creep towards the bed
Towards my body, massaging me into the day
And I felt like I could handle whatever came my way
I feel like I can be that woman that I long to be
I feel free to decide and free to pray
And today I am praying for forgiveness
I woke up this morning and I was a different woman
A blessed woman, a woman with potential
I don’t know who that was that closed her eyes to sleep
But like the blind she has opened her eyes to see
That life is beautiful.
And she can be
be careful what you wish for..
yesterday was my birthday and i spent the entire morning and some of the afternoon at an accident site and the police station. i got into an accident at 9:30 a.m. and while i was not the one at fault in a way i am connected to this scene. all morning i was cursing the fact that i had to go to work, saying over and over that i wish i didn't have to go and thinking of excuses so that i could leave early. i basically "spoke" this accident into my life by focusing on it so much both mentally and verbally.
and it is true, what you speak into your life can come true, sometimes in ways that you wouldn't even imagine. what you say of others as well, you can speak negativity into someone else's life, that's why nowadays i am so cautious of what i think to myself and say of/to others. training myself to have positive uplifting thoughts. it's a work in progress.
i am thankful that no one got hurt yesterday, thankful for another year, for life, family and friendships. i can achieve anything as long as i always put God first!!