stay up! (pack light)

work can really start to suck you dry and i'm feeling it. how can i not? seeing people everyday who have to deal with some circumstances that i could never even imagine. some poverty stricken individuals, individuals with some serious mental problems, chaaa, today it is really affecting me and bringing me down. i know they say you shouldn't take your work home with you but it is hard.

and then working with these kids, that is hard as well. so many of them can't even read, write or spell. some schools that used to be so highly regarded now falling at the wayside. what will become of my children and my children's children. it makes me feel like my generation has failed. we are not setting the examples and providing our future with the resources they need to maintain themselves. we as adults are setting bad examples, living promiscuous lives, no wonder i could have a student ask me about "trunking"....imagine that. what will become of barbados if we are raising illiterate children. back to the plantation?

i have to try to maintain my balance though, i am here for a reason, for a mission, there is a divine reason i was called home. truth be told i'm gonna have to learn how to separate myself from my clients. i guess i was a bit soft anyway. i guess i am gonna have to harden up where they are concerned.

i am thankful though, thankful that i haven't given up hope as yet.....