...i keep....

i have to laugh......cause i don't wanna cry
i gotta live.......cause i don't wanna die
i must keep going.....cause i'm searching for joy
the joy in my heart.......even if for a second
even if it's a lie.....cause i can't handle the truth.

thank you.

i keep holding onto something that cannot fulfill me.

i keep wondering what my next move should be?

i keep wondering what lies ahead of me?

i keep wondering "is that all there is?"